The short story is, it wasnt a good first 60 years. Dad's gone, mom is horror story, alive and well, full on bastard and healthy as a horse. Hmmmm, lucky me.
In my head lately, Ive been thinking that if I should survive my husband, I really don't want my kids to end up saddled with my age and eventual demise. I hate, ABSOLUTELY HATE, my connection with my mom and I've got this "thing" about elderly now...IM 61 !!!! I should be throwing no rocks- but this dementia, cancer, Alz.. incontinence, doctor visits, hearing aide, cant walk, park or drive....who died, who had a stroke, who can't have dairy, who has bowel trouble....I just can't do anymore and I sure don't cherish the idea of my kids, leaving my house thinking like I do now. I would rather die in the desert alone before my daughter gets in her car and thinks- GOD she stinks! Granted, I am no where like my mother- total opposite- but age does indeed happen...and somehow got myself into a mess now, thinking about when my time comes and age has really parked itself at my door- do I want my son making the "son visits" and my daughter stuck with everything else? You can forget assisted living- I'm broke now thanks to that mother of mine- 61 with less than 10K to my name- its all gone-gone- so if anything it will be a welfare nursing home for this girl. What do you think? I never had this adverse feeling for elders before, but having her now living near me has just weird-ed me out! So unlike me-to feel this way-it just keeps playing over and over.........Thanks mom, another thing I'm stuck with because of you. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Now Mom. Sounds like you may have the same problem that a lot have here, a narcissistic Mom. You are not obligated to give up your life for a parent. You also don't give up ur financial future for them. If you can't afford to help, you don't do it. There r services out there to help them. Senior housing where rent is based on income.
If you want to vent about her, go ahead. Pretty sure a lot will chime in.
I have 5 great kids, Just beyond stellar and all 5 have said I can live with them if needed. What a sweet and stupid gesture. (They're seeing an active busy 62 yo who still babysits all the time!) and I know that I am getting older--this year along was awful and I look at pics of myself from 1 year ago and I can't believe how much I have aged. DH had a terrible year with his health, and I was right there for every single thing. I am still anxious beyond belief when I see him looking under the weather or sleeping too much...or just aging himself.
We have a plan, we have savings and investments, but we still live in fear ( a little, not a lot) that we won't be OK financially to the end.
I don't want my kids doing any more for me than maybe going to lunch with me or hauling me along to Disneyland.
Best laid plans, right?
I do not know why the 'greatest generation' seems to be rife with narcissists. Maybe that's a sweeping statement, but this board seems to really touch a nerve with a lot of people who are feeling the stress of a difficult parent or two.
My own DH offered me $100 to go with him to visit his (very difficult) mother last week. I told him I can get my own $100 and call one of the grandkids. He blames his non-existent relation ship with his mom on me. Whatever.
I have good relationships with all the kids. I think it's sweet all 5 would 'take me in' (they won't take their dad--but he doesn't know that)...and I think if were EOL and I was in hospice, I might take them up on it.
I just have so many bad feelings about my mother moving in with my very manipulative brother. 22 years and she is miserable, but in sort of a Stockholm syndrome kind of way. She 'hates' him, but if you offer to DO anything that HE wants to do, you get shot down. SMH.
I can only think he is 'getting back at her' for a lifetime of crappy mothering. There is zero in this for him.
My mother only asked that we find her care. She and dad saved religiously because they ended up having to do hands on care for all their elders in the days before there were alternatives. Quite frankly, having grandma live with us was a terrible experience. More for my mom than for us, but not good for us at all.
My sister has said many times how she won't ever let her daughter take care of her. And I don't have any children, so there's that. We're both in the situation where we always lived paycheck to paycheck with only what we'll inherit from the mother we're taking care of for retirement. Well, except for Social Security which will probably be bankrupt since there will be so dang many baby boomers receiving those government dollars. Too bad I wasn't smart enough to invest in assistant living facilities.
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