My siblings and I have been caring for our mother(age 82) in her home for the past 6 years or so. She is living with Huntington's Chorea disease. Some of her ways and behaviors these days are unbelievable! I am starting to lean towards finding a facility for her to reside and am feeling guilty about it. Mom's abusive behaviors and down right meaness towards me is getting next to me. Mom is cooperative with all others who come to help her but is very argumentative, combative and defiant with me. Maybe I am not the better care taker for her. Perhaps she'd prefer others to care for her as opposed to her daughter. She has expressed that she wants to go to a nursing home. Who knows...
Guilt is about doing something wrong or thinking we "should" be able to provide all the care our elderly parents need. Neither apply when our folks need nursing or round the clock care. I regret that I could not find some way to care for my parents that allowed them to remain in their home of 60+ years, but I have no guilt over it because I did nothing wrong. Their financial resources could not sustain 24/7 in home care. I helped them as much as I could to stay in that house as long as being there did not risk their safety, then I helped move them out; MC for Dad and into my home for Mom. After the dust settled, it felt as though the weight of the world had been left behind.
Does mom have funds for private care? Would she need Medicaid? Does she need 24/7 care at this time?
Relationships of any form require mutual respect. Your life matters too.
I am sorry you are dealing with this. It won’t get better on its own. Make plans to get a break whether it’s for a few hours or days. You will both benefit from it and gain perspective.
Come here and vent as needed. Hugs