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So I'm feeling like a complete sissy!
I have always been the rock for everyone!
I totally get the fact that the things that have occurred over the last 5 months have changed my life for an indeterminate period of time.
I have become responsible for truly 3 other people. My Mom, my Aunt and my seriously crazy cousin.
I know I'm not nuts, but when do you know it's time to go talk to a professional?
Will this just pass?
How do we just get over grieving our once peaceful life?

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It *is* time to talk to a professional - one who can guide you in finding practical support, to take at least part of the work off your shoulders and be ready to step in when needed. Stop and think: what happens to the people you love if anything happens to you?

Caregiver burnout becomes a serious problem, i.e. serious to the extent that it can have terrible consequences, when the damage done to the caregiver impacts on the person or people he or she is caring for.

In only the last couple of days there have been examples (including on the forum) of loving, caring, good people who have been driven to treat their loved ones cruelly and abusively. They are under such strain that they have lost sight of what they themselves want and are trying to achieve. Impatience becomes rough handling, frustration becomes spite, the longing for just a short break turns into neglect of immediate needs. It escalates from there.

And don't think it can't happen to you.
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You’re not nuts. You are normal. Normal people get frustrated with stressful situations.

It’s time to speak to someone whenever you want to. It does help. A therapist has a way of helping us to see what we need to see. They truly are that outside objective voice. I would recommend it.

Best wishes to you. Take care 💗.
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I am asking the same question. I am going on ten years of caregiving. 2 for my sister and dad, and now 8 yrs for my mother. I am NOT the same person and I recently asked the rest of my family to realize the depths of my transformation from being strong and independent to being just a sponge of negativity. My only conversation is about the latest health issue of my mother. It is that bad. And I am so sad. My mother is going to be 94, and on hospice for 10 months, but managing her along with hospice has become a full time job. I pray to be released from this life of caretaking even though I know it will be because my mother is no longer here. If I knew then what I know now, I would have done things differently. It is too much. Please do whatever it takes to get your life back. You are entitled to your life and the way you want to live it.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
God bless ya!!
The realization that this could be more than a decade of caring for them is disturbing, but true.
I guess I thought we would get into a groove and things would be easier. It seems as though my loved ones are only going to decline and so is my anticipated groove.
Hang in there nymima!
I'll try to do the same!
God bless!
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Yup, me too.. Unfortunately, mine has dwindled down to one in the last year or so...
and it is hard.. Hang in there. I didn't realize how hard it is or was.. I don't know. I haven't talked to a "professional" .I use this Aging Care site as my "professional". I blog and get things off my chest. My advice to others, as I stated in one answer, are for reading, absorbing, and take what you want, discard what you don't want or like. It may help out later. Captain, who was on the site for a long time, is great.. I like his opinions. He is honest all the way..
Just hang in there. If you feel you need a "jump start", then find one you like and trust. Trust..
I lost a number of LO's in the past few years, very very close. I like to think they are up there, laughing at me, and saying I really screwed up...Or, hopefully, you really screwed up, but you meant well... One way or the other, You can be your own worst enemy.. DO NOT DO THAT... You are doing the best you can with the tools you have... And you ARE OKAY.... You are allowed to be the rock that wobbles when stepped on once in a while... Rocks can be rocky at times, as the paths that you take. You got to roll or role with it. Just stand up, dust yourself off, do a quick check. We are human.. You are allowed to feel that way.. If you can't do it, who can? And if you feel you need a talk with a professional, then make the appointment. It is okay. NObody should judge you.. Nobody.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
Thanks Mayday,
You're spot on. And I also come here to vent. It does help to get things off my chest here instead of to my hubby.
I think while I have been trying to get two LO's settled into to assisted living in two different places and everything that goes with it , I have not been mindful of the time of the year. It's been close to 2 years (the week before Easter), that my brother committed suicide. Something that I honestly don't know if I will ever understand, however as you pointed out, it doesn't get better you just learn how to deal with it.
It still haunts me, but I don't dwell on it anymore. Easter is still kinda rough.
Thank you so much for your insight and support!
Praying for you and your family.
God bless and keep you!
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I empathize with where you are at xrayjodib and I completely agree with MAYDAY. I have found so much comfort and wisdom on this site and I hope that you will, too, see that you are not alone from belonging here.

There are times when I think I can't care give one more second. During those times I have learned it is my cue for some alone time. For me, that is a quick walk around the yard, petting my dog for a few minutes or simply plopping on the couch to watch a quick few minutes of the news. I come on here late at night or when mom sleeps. These few simple things help me decompress and refuel. I also pray a lot.

So I hope that you can remember, this too shall pass. If you need professional help then seek it out!. Whatever is going to help you come to terms with your current situation. Even if you find that caring for three other people is depleting you to the point that it is harmful to you, then get out! It isn't worth it in the long run.

Sometimes letting our loved ones go into facilities or have them hire other caretakers is the best for all concern.

Best wishes to you and please keep us posted to how you are doing.
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1-800-273-8255 Please call if you are having thoughts of suicide. I have yet to see a post that talks candidly and honestly about caregiver mental health. Depending on the various sources, (could be higher) caregivers are about 3 times more likely than the general population to end their own lives and it doesn’t have to happen. I’m so glad this website is here so that we know we’re not alone. I posted this phone number for the National suicide crisis line above.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
Thank you so much WilliMartin.
Although I don't have any thoughts of suicide (because I totally know the carnage that's left behind), I absolutely appreciate the fact that you brought up the subject! And the info!
Good for all of us that are in this together to know!
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To xrayjodib, It’s a problem when caregiving impairs the quality of your own life. Some of us are willing to compromise some of our own needs while caring for another. It varies with how much is required, our relationships, and the time over which caregiving is extended. Many factors. But we all have limits.

You are not a sissy. Your life matters. Please get help ASAP.
Also, for many of us there are rewards for caregiving. For starters, it can feel good to help someone when we can. That can add to our confusion. I think the bottom line is we all must set limits on how much time and energy we can give to caregiving. Often some stronger boundaries are needed. Please see previous post on this site about setting boundaries.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
Thanks Nancy!
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I knew I needed to talk with a therapist when my sweet sister said she couldn’t be everything for me through this. I was grappling with feelings about my dad and my caregiving that was seriously causing me much pain and I would burst into tears in my car and I thought, I need to see someone. It helped tremendously to have my therapist's listening, non judgmental ear and letting me know what I felt was ok and normal. She helped me with some ways to cope. My dad is fortunate to have saved a lot of money for someone with just a high school education, and I used his funds to pay for my sessions as Medicare did not pay a LPC. They will however pay for a psychologist or a MSW, but I couldn’t find one taking new patients. So I urge you to go. At one point in my caring, It got so bad that I truly didn’t care if I woke up the next day. I never went on an antidepressant but it hindsight, I probably should have as I was barely coping and had no joy. I’m a thousand times better now.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
Harpcat,
I assume you're Dad's POA.
I haven't even looked into reimbursing myself for counseling.
Because it's your Dad, I'm sure he's good with it, but do you know if it's within POA guidelines? If not, I will see what I can find. One of my biggest stressors is praying that I am doing everything legally. It's overwhelming.
Like you, there's no telling when the tears are gonna start.
It's awful!
Hang in there! God bless!
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If you're thinking it's a serious problem then it's a serious problem.

"After the death of my Uncle, I have found myself responsible for my Aunt. They have a son. He is mentally ill and abusive towards my Aunt. I have found her a wonderful assisted living facility in California, but I would love to have her closer to me in Montana. Her son is in a homeless shelter and cannot do anything to care for her, but I hesitate to move her away from where he is. I truly need advice on what to do. I am grateful for any advice you can offer . I'm feeling very lost in this totally unexpected situation. Thanks for your support!"

You have choices. It sounds like you have bitten off more than you can chew. As sad as it is, you've done what you can for your aunt. You cannot also take on *her* "homeless" son.

As long as you continue to try to carry your mother, your aunt and your aunt's hopeless son atop your shoulders, no, this will not "just pass" and something will give e.g. your health, your marriage, your work, etc. If you consider yourself a fixer then seek help immediately from a professional who can help you extricate yourself from this triad of tragedy.
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xrayjodib Mar 2020
You're totally right!!
I am "The Fixer"!
Time to seek out a therapist!
Thanks!
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You need respite BEFORE you reach the breaking point, which might be sooner than you originally thought. Get it, else you faint and fall ill. Prayers sent to you.
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NeedHelpWithMom Mar 2020
Absolutely! Too many of us learn this the hard way. We end up burning out. Excellent advice.
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