My wife was diagnosed in late 2019. As her illness worsened, I was her only caretaker, though Kindred Hospice assisted during her last 2 months. Her family and friends were aware of her illness from the beginning of our 6-1/2 year marriage, without mentioning it to me until late 2019. During 2020, they only visited about 3 times, and never called to inquire of her condition, or mine. One son and his family live only 15 miles away in Reno; the other son lives in San Francisco, yet he could easily call. Since her death, they never even once, call to see how I am (I'm 82 in March). I'm very lonely, though I have a small farm to run. Good neighbors, but we all keep to ourselves. I have 2 grandsons - one in Elko, NV, about 5 hours away and the other is about 10 miles away, but doesn't drive. They do call me, but how do I handle my wife's family's lack of consideration?
I think when we are not close to people, or they to us, there is quite honestly little to be done. In Covid times we cannot visit one another. Surely a call to family periodically to touch bases would be good. Just ask how they are, what their family news is. Make it a brief call. Try not to focus on your loneliness during the call. Tell them what is happening on your farm. Just keep it brief.
I would focus then on neighbors and activities that, if not available in your area, may become so once covid is more under control.
I'm afraid until covid IS a thing of the past, we are all somewhat in the same boat. We aren't seeing family. We are left to solitaire games, puzzles, and what have you for entertainment. I would imagine you thank goodness for the farm and for keeping touch with the land, having things to do.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I am sorry for your loneliness. I think until it happens to us, this being alone, we don't honestly really think about it a lot. They are all younger, and they all have their own lives. Doesn't make it easier for you. But it's just a fact.
I just lost a friend who all her life expected certain things out of people. And when they didn't live up to those expectations she got depressed and angry. Please don't do this to yourself. Let them go. At 82 maybe there should be changes in your life. Maybe move where there are more people and things to do. Maybe an independent living complex where you get an apartment, go to a dining room for meals, have activities and outings.
I am 71 and I am already aware that if my DH goes before me I will need to make changes. That I am going to need to make a new life for "me". Not that my girls won't be there but they will not be able to care for me or entertain me. Both have to work and have lives outside that. As the oldest and a girl I have learned not to expect. My brothers loved my Mom, I am sure of that, but they never went out of their way for her. It got done because I did it. I had my "mad" moments but after awhile I stopped expecting anything from them. Makes life so much easier. One brother lives 8hrs away and has said he won't come home now Mom is gone. Sad, huh, when I am still here and also another brother. I even have a friend I have had for 66 years but I have found I cannot expect certain things from her now. Its just how it is.
Just read ur profile. You seem to be an active man. All you have done in the past few years is care for someone. You may just need to give yourself some time to learn to just be with alone with you. I would not rush into anything. They say don't make any life changing decisions for a year after a spouses passing. It takes time give yourself that time.
I love your profile. You have a very kind soul. Please don’t lose sight of that.
I’m quite sure that your wife fell in love with your kind heart and soul.
It does seem that a death or a divorce changes the dynamics in certain families, which is sad and unfortunate.
Some relationships in our lives are not meant to be permanent. Others last forever.
Express how you feel to the family members that you wish to have contact with. If they return a mutual interest, the relationship will blossom.
I can see that you are caring, intelligent, open to relationships.
I see that you met your wife with the help of a personal ad, good for you!
I urge you to remain involved in life.
I have a feeling that you enjoy your solitude but don’t wish to be a hermit!
If your family members don’t reciprocate your wishes to have a relationship and your neighbors stay to themselves, widen your scope.
I grew up next door to a woman that I absolutely adored.
I was friends with her daughter.
She was divorced at a time when divorced women were looked down on.
She was an artist. She went back to school when she was middle aged.
She got her degree, opened an art studio, made bazillions of trips to New York to visit the incredible art museums there.
She never remarried but she stayed involved in life. She was always hosting events in her home.
She taught me all sorts of interesting art.
She is now in a nursing home in Maine, near her daughter. Her kids are spread out. Her daughter is a professor in Maine. She has a son in AZ, and a son who remains here in New Orleans. She still paints and is in her 90’s.
You have a farm. I bet that you could teach younger people lots of things.
Take time to grieve. Grieve alone and if other family members decide to share their grief with you, grieve together.
You will always miss your wife. Please remember that she lives in your heart forever.
You had a tough time caring for her. It’s hard. Honor your feelings, move forward knowing that you did your very best.
I know that you are grateful for your health. I have a feeling that you will make the most of your life.
I would love to hear more about your farm.
I am a city gal but I have a huge appreciation for nature.
Take care.
May God grant you grieving mercies and comfort during this difficult time.
I agree with Geaton and Barb, reach out to your stepchildren if you want to have contact with them. As far as your wife's illness and them knowing and not saying anything, well it wasn't theirs to tell, that was her responsibility to tell you. They were placed in an awkward position by her choice to not tell you, so I would let that go.
No way would my mother even consider that she had ANY issue, much less dementia. To her dementia was being "off your rocker", aka crazy, which it isn't, so we never used the word around her. If someone told her she had this condition, she would deny it!
In this case, if the family knew or suspected dementia, they should have made some effort to let OP know.
I agree with BarbBrooklyn that you can choose to connect with them but I think they've made their level of interest and involvement abundantly clear already. Knowing what I've learned from my husband's "blended" family I wouldn't have any expectations from them going forward. Invest your emotional energy in local people who actually do seem interested in your life and continue seeking those good people. It's hard in the covid era, but when you are eventually able, join groups, clubs and faith-based organizations. Get your legal paperwork in order if you haven't done so already (assign a Power of Attorney, create your Advance Care Directive, be realistic about aging and decline and exiting, etc.) Your family is not obligated to be your caregivers so please talk to an elder law attorney who will give you solid legal guidance so you can make the best plan possible for your future. I wish you wisdom and peace in your heart.
"The best way to get a letter is to send a letter". That is a quote from a kids' TV show that my granddaughter likes.
Send them all letters telling them how you are doing. It's okay to say you are lonely! Include your phone number.