Like stages of grief....?
I'm sure some never accept it. What I'm seeing is like Mom is on an emotional roller coaster.
She's wanting to live to, see her grandkids grow up. Then, to see them just one more time. Lately it's, "I just can't take this anymore." Sometimes it's, "I just want to be normal again." The hardest to hear is the, "I just want to go to sleep and never wake up."
This struggle is real. She's looked in my eyes and said, "I'm really dying right?" Other times I get, "I don't want to die."
The beautiful ones are when she's holding my hand and she catches me crying, she'll perk right up and sternly say, "No no I'll bounce back, don't cry, it WILL be ok." (Hey all, meet my Mom!) Yeah, totally Mom mode there.
Just wondering if she'll come to accept she's dying. I guess no one really knows since everyone is different.
I'm so mad, I want to put my head through a wall! I want to curse, scream, cry, throw sh*t, throw up and howl.....yeah I actually want to howl!!!
(Speaking of an emotional roller coaster)
Thank you.
Big HUGGZ 🤗 Back!
Yep, that's just what she's going through.
What a horrible feeling to be so helpless.
Talk it out, cry it out, scream it out. That's all I can do, so I don't fall in to a dark depressed hole myself.
I'm always here if you need me.💖🌹
He has become so withdrawn and when we do talk he laments that he just needs to get 'better' he just needs to feel 'better' one more time.
We both know he is dying a bit at a time. He is depressed.
He is sad, he wishes he'd just go in his sleep. Most of all, I think he is tired of being alive and struggling each day along with slowly losing his mental capabilities.
Here is a hug, I know what you are going through ... I think.
Thank you. I know now it sound stupid, but I always thought when a person finished one stage they'd be done with it and move to the next. Not jumping back and forth through them. Sounds so ridiculous because I know emotions are crazy.
The spiritual councilor will be here Friday. I doubt Mom will want to talk to him, but I NEED to. I need God right now so much, but I just can't feel Him anymore.
Worried,
Me and Mom have always been amazingly connected.... to a fault. What she felt, I felt and vice versa. So I totally get what you went through.
This poor soul doesn't even call for me anymore. When she wakes up, she just lays there. She doesn't eat, doesn't drink and she only pee's once, every 24 hrs.
This, by far, is the hardest thing I've ever done.
Thank you ladies for taking the time to help me.
HUGGZ 🤗 to you both💕🌹
I think that those who are dying also grieve and go through the various stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. A person can jump from one stage to another stage depending on their current emotions. Sometimes as a person “prepares for death”, they attempt to finish a life’s work, set things right with family and friends, make peace with the inevitable, participate in religious or family rituals, and thus achieve a deep sense of peace with the help of family, friends, and sometimes clergy.
I am sorry to hear about your Mom. I hope that Hospice is helpful to her and to you. {{Hugs}}
I totally get it. My Mom went downhill so fast it was crazy. At some points I thought she was faking it. Well some of it. But now she's on hospice, no faking at all. Be patient, I know it's tough.
BIG CYBER HUGGZ 2U🤗
I will pray for us both!