I can't believe I'm typing this and that the nightmare is over for now.
I could not have travelled this horrible caregiving journey without all your support. All of you who replied to my questions were a beacon of light in this seemingly never-ending gloom. You all were my safe space and I could trust you to come up with creative solutions and thoughtful answers.
Mom was on home hospice. In the end, when mom passed, it was so unreal & so unexpected. She had her coffee, Ensure like everyday, and then suddenly she made a strange sound, her head rolled to one side - I panicked and called both hospice and 911. Hospice nurse took long time in coming today but EMTs came right away and certified her passing and then hospice took over later.
My in-laws are with me in good health and I'm hoping no more caregiving for some time.
Thank you, dear forumers, from the bottom of my heart and I will keep sending out strength vibes to all you warriors out there
In real life, one's passing is rarely as grand and ceremonious as it appears in movies.
I'm sorry that you had to see your mother's head swerve like that.
Rest assured you gave her your best, and she knows that too.
Hope you can give yourself time to rest and take each day as it comes.
So, where is brother in all this?
I am glad that she got to pass at home in peace.
(((Hugs))))
I hope and pray that you'll now take time to take good care of yourself and find joy, peace and rest along the next journey of your life.
You did a great job caring for your mom, so please don't waste your time with any of the would haves, could haves or should haves, as you did the very best you could . Please don't forget that.
May God bless you and keep you.
It must feel sureal indeed. Even typing it here, adding that EOL tag 😥
The word you used that jumped out was *peacefully*.
May that feeling of peacefullness, of the natural conclusion prevail over the next days of planning, organising & busyness.
(((hugs)))
Your mom was very blessed to have you and your family to fill the gap for her.
May The Lord give you strength, peace and grieving mercies for this new season in your life.